i've been reading some thinspo books lately, and i've realized that they all SUCK.
i have read only two decent ones, stick figure and wintergirls.
i think i will purchase wintergirls, beca se i liked it so well.
school starts next friday.
my mom wants to go shopping with me, and i kinds of do too, but i'm afraid of what size i will be, and i'm afraid that if i do lose alot of weight (which is very unlikely, but it could still happen) then all that money would go to waste. what i primarily need is pants, and you can't wear pants that are too big, you just can't. you'll have to wear a belt, and then the thighs area will look all baggy, and then your ubtt looks saggy because it gets all loose, so i don't want to shell out 350 for like only three pairs of jeans.
shirts, shirts are okay. i don't really care if they are baggy. i don't mind the 'swimming in my clothing' look, but only with shirts. if my pants are too big, and they aren't sweats, i get anxious. also if i have lots of pant room, i tend to overeat.

god. i wish so badly that i was perfect. so fucking badly.